Do you trust me?

If someone asks you to trust her(or his) opinion on an ice cream flavor, the consequences aren't that devastating. Trusting someone to pick out a movie, new restaurant, or a hotel, won't result in devastation.  Although these seem like ridiculous trusting situations, we find ourselves in moment where we are skeptical and don't want to trust any opinion or advice.  After all, does anyone trust the government?  Does anyone trust the news or what is actually in our food?   There are actually a lot of things in life that we can distrust.  I was thinking about trust one day in church, (dad I was paying attention!) when I realized am I actually, truthfully able to say that I trust the Lord.  When the Lord asks me, "Do you love me?"   and then, "Do you trust me?"  Are we actually willing to say yes and to follow through with it.  Do you actually realize what it means to trust Jesus?  Of course I trust Jesus when I have a job, a car that runs, a loving family, and so forth.  On the other side, I find myself currently without a steady job, not many friends, wondering when I will return to Togo, and so on with my pitiful story.  Why continue to sob and stay down trodden when I just walk each step in faith.  What does this look like?  I always go back to the Israelites who had to cross into the Jordan River into the Promised Land.  The priests showed their trust in the Lord by stepping into the river before God stopped the water.  We have to take the step of faith before we really see the whole picture or maybe it takes more steps into the water until we see even a small part of the picture.  We are hardly ever going to see the large picture, and to be honest, that is okay because it is too much for us to handle.  Remember that God only gives us what we can handle and although we want to see all that will happen, we are better off without it because it is too much for us to bear.  Instead, of saying, "why?"  we need to commence with "yes, I trust you!" and actually step out into the river in lieu of saying it.  Here I am, asking, why can't I make a real income?  Why am I called to Togo?  Why can't I go now? It sounds a lot like complaining to me!  Although I am an exceptional complainer, it isn't an ideal trait to possess and one that isn't flattering as I am trying to follow my Savior.  Laying that aside, I have decide to trust the Lord.  No, it isn't an easy step at all but when I say, "I trust you Lord" I am putting aside my selfishness, my worries, my agenda and relying on God's perfect time.  I will return to Togo.  I do not know the day and instead of focusing on the negative, I will hold up my hands in submission to my king.  I will surrender the reigns and rest in peace that God has everything taken care of because really He does! 

God has the plan of getting me back to Togo.  Have a part in it by being a prayer of financial supporter.